There’s always chaos in our heads when you need to choose a path out of two. And the tempting side of one cloud the possible caveats. You only realize it to be the wrong road once you have come far from where you started and turning back has now become the toughest of what it had been yet. It’s not uncommon as we all faced it at least once in our life.
We all have been there when we feel like hundreds of hours spent on work doesn’t seem to be fruitful enough. It’s the moment when we know that we were digging deep into something that has only surrounded us with several trepidations. The only thing is that the repercussions show up only after the havoc. Be it your career or relationship, you figure out in the end that investing your life into it wasn’t the right thing to do.
And facing such a hassle, you’d fear that it may happen again and this might be a long trap of difficulties. However, we’d still think that getting more into it and trying to fix the situation would help it get going. To tell you the truth, no matter what plans you come up with in order to mend it, you always knew where it went wrong and you had to distance yourself but you didn’t.
You never considered it to be wrong and accepted it as your reality when you were running out of options. All this while, you knew that the path you chose is devastating but you forced yourself thinking that it’s soon going to be better. And when it comes to your relationship, you already realized that it wasn’t great for both of you and this is why it ended today. Well, a good relationship has no reason to end and the ones that do were meant to end. You always overlooked even the slightest of hints and fooled yourself.
Inside your head, you always had the competence to distinguish right and wrong, but you talked yourself out of it just to do what’s good for the very moment. Despite being covered with layers of fear, attachment, and the idea to not let go, the truth is you had been justifying your wrong deeds and ignored the outcomes. You bought the unnecessary things to level up your lifestyle when you knew the debt would soon be out of your hands.
Allow yourself to settle and just think about it. Maybe you already got the hint that it wasn’t for you. The issues in your relationship were clearly visible but instead of figuring out the possibilities, you managed to escape from the troubles. So, you always had the understanding of dos and don’ts, and pretending that everything’s okay had made it worse already. You just convinced yourself to hope for the light on the other side where being honest with yourself could bring wonders.